My girls are making themselves known to me, in a way no other PMS cycle has before.
Alas, only the control line showed on the stick.
Betrayed by my boobs. *sigh*
Part of me wonders if I'm not subconciously sabotaging my chances of getting pregnant. I had wanted to be in a much better financial position before we
He just really wants to go ahead, plans be damned.
But I like to plan, and I like to feel in control. I'm open to a baby, I just think I'd be more open later this year, or next year.
Yeah, that doesn't sound convincing, does it? I recognize that wanting to be in control doesn't jive very well with being open to a baby. I recognize that having a baby means that in a lot of ways, your life is truly out of control.
There are so many unknowns when it comes to babies. We cannot afford to have one or the other of us stay at home with baby. We probably cannot afford daycare either! Handsome has so many dreams of beautifying our home and yard, making it hospitable for us and a family, if that's what God plans. I can't imagine much progress being made when we're sleep deprived and totally broke.
Maybe it's just not the right time.
Is it okay that I'm fine with that?